Get Crush for going down so quick...

This Monochrome life still don't wanna go away from me. I guess I wanna be a magician to fade this grayness away...

Hell No !!! Hey my mother mood, where are you going ?? I can't handle this bad mood anymore.

It has been many years ago since I felt the best feeling that people usually called it as love.  I don't know why, lately this feeling is going to be something I wanna run away from.  Feel useless, feel like what the hell is going on here. Can I breath for such awhile ?? Maybe a second, take me free and out of this situation.  But this is the life dude, You never can go away unless the death will stop you ! ! !

For long time ago, I never feel something different like this before, but when I got crush, suddenly it was disappear so quick.  It's not fair to angry with God, it is what will you spend, it is what will you sacrifice for.  I don't talk about fighting for love.  In my dictionary it's just a bullshit ! Fight for love ?? Find me and show me your love, free me from this misery if you really mean it.

The position that we've met, it was wrong or something ?? Or it was a faith ?? Your decision made me breathless, like there's no fresh air, I need you like the oxygen.  However, I respect you because you are my best friend. I love you just the way what we are now. Don't change it again. When you get someone much much better than me beside you, so it's a me time to get back and just stay behind you, support you as well.  Don't ever worry about me, I'm the best actress, so I can hide my tears behind my smile, and I can show you my happiness beyond my sadness.  But trust me, I will be just fine.

So glad and faithful cuz God met us together, at least I found something that loving and be loved is more than just the easy word !

Trying to be "A half full glass of wine"

Yogyakarta, 7 November 2010, a half nite of gloomy Sunday...

Hello anyone, it is my first story in this November.  Seems like too long I've left this blog. But now You look more gorgeous I guess.  It's YOU in new style, new thought, and new wonderful stories.  Like what I said in that title, "Trying to be 'a half full glass of wine'", I'm here because I just wanna show you that I want be that way. I've changed the title of this blog, from The Lovable Lucindud to The Luciana Story.  Hahahahahh, have you ever think that you are getting old time after time, but you still do something silly ?? Yes that is ME. Yeahhh, hahahahh, sebagian orang banyak tahu sama title ini "Lucindud", but somehow I just wanna grow up. I'm trying to be better person. I'm trying to be a lady and leave the tittle spoiled girl. And I'm trying to be that half full glass of wine :)

Whatever you say outside, this way is totally complicated, but once again, I have someone out there who think that what we wanna be is something easy when you get your positive mind. Be thankful for that someone special, I have you more than just I have a billion jewellery ! :)

Heeyyy wait, don't you hear what is happening in my city now ?? Yesssss, that's why I called it gloomy night. Never feel like this before. The most beautiful mountain called Merapi is becoming the queen of the news today. The eruption so concerning. The rain ash all the day and it has been happening for many days. It is making us the society of Jogjakarta mourn all the times. But what we believe is just Allah SWT still will protect us, still love us, and still want us to pray to Allah SWT.  Hey my friends, show your smile and be patient, cuz everything is gonna be okay ! ! ! :)