Get Crush for going down so quick...

This Monochrome life still don't wanna go away from me. I guess I wanna be a magician to fade this grayness away...

Hell No !!! Hey my mother mood, where are you going ?? I can't handle this bad mood anymore.

It has been many years ago since I felt the best feeling that people usually called it as love.  I don't know why, lately this feeling is going to be something I wanna run away from.  Feel useless, feel like what the hell is going on here. Can I breath for such awhile ?? Maybe a second, take me free and out of this situation.  But this is the life dude, You never can go away unless the death will stop you ! ! !

For long time ago, I never feel something different like this before, but when I got crush, suddenly it was disappear so quick.  It's not fair to angry with God, it is what will you spend, it is what will you sacrifice for.  I don't talk about fighting for love.  In my dictionary it's just a bullshit ! Fight for love ?? Find me and show me your love, free me from this misery if you really mean it.

The position that we've met, it was wrong or something ?? Or it was a faith ?? Your decision made me breathless, like there's no fresh air, I need you like the oxygen.  However, I respect you because you are my best friend. I love you just the way what we are now. Don't change it again. When you get someone much much better than me beside you, so it's a me time to get back and just stay behind you, support you as well.  Don't ever worry about me, I'm the best actress, so I can hide my tears behind my smile, and I can show you my happiness beyond my sadness.  But trust me, I will be just fine.

So glad and faithful cuz God met us together, at least I found something that loving and be loved is more than just the easy word !